Monday, February 19, 2007
My New Year.
I have not had a comfortable sleep for the longest time. And my mind is spinning every second, many many brain cells being used up as well. For hours, days, weeks.
I'm on a emotional and thinking mode right now. Past month plus was indeed very busy. One thing bout TP, they just like to rush projects, assignments, presentations, tests, all at one go. And i myself experienced a first time during that time, for not having enough time to do work, and rushed them till i couldn't find anytime to take a short nap at all. All i could was to rest on the table for say.. 10 mins, and i've to freshen up myself after that and continue. A few times in fact. Thought through and am wondering if the reason is because i didn't try to plan my time well, or i slacked too much etc. But no, it was just after the mere two weeks break after mid-sem and brah... everything just came, all at one time. Remembered there was one point, i was on the verge of lettin everything go, stop everything, don't think bout anything and just take a break. But i know i can't.
As what i've said, the mind keeps spinning, brain cells are used up every second. For the past month and all, i haven had a really comfortable sleep. Just couldn't. Was home for the whole day today, took a short nap in the afternoon. Planning to take an hour nap, but kept waking up for bout 5-6 times, with many thoughts in the head. And when i finally woke up after one hour, it's as though i slept for a few hours, with a few wakes in between.
Chinese new year has been really quiet this year, i didnt even manage to catch a glimpse of my cousins during the first day of cny. Went to both granny's place only, and stayed there for bout half to one hour, and then headed back home. As for today, i didnt want to go out, being bothered by my own thoughts, and as well as exams, so stayed at home for the whole day. But i had a surprise visitor yesterday, San was sweet, she came visiting me at night for a while and we had dinner together at home too. She had to leave early as she lives in the other side of Sg, Jurong. And bout 11, eddie came to visit me too. Which i appreciate it too. :) He knew i was somehow not feeling very good recently, and i've to thank him for actually takin some time outta his busy schedule to listen.
Come to think of it, it's in fact, very quiet this year. Didn't have the festive occasion feeling as well.
Sometimes, i just do not know how should i go about doing things. Afraid? worry? Right, i dont know what i'm talking already. Sometimes, sometimes, it just got me really tired thinking, one thing bout me that i hate myself for that.
Alright, back to my stuffs. Happy new year once again.
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